hey kiddles
again i have not written in this for a long long time
i decided that im gonna keep up with this shit a lot more often
me and ash both randomly woke up at 4:20-haha-and i was reading this shit and i miss ittttt
anyways
im gettin sick :( and im ridiculously broke...so ive had one cig today and im really really pissed :( so im goin home tomorrow! haha not just cuz i cant have a smoke but i miss everyone. next weekend is lake geneva, if its nice out, and rick is comin...he has yet to meet my parents yet. so well see how that turns out
weekend after that im moving back home, cuz i only have two finals that im gonna drive down here for
will and grace finale on in 20 min!! im excited but very saddened i love that show
ugh im just so stressed with the end of school and finals and drama goin on around here cuz everyones stressed
atleast im finally over the whole ryan situation and do not care about what i find out now
i really really need to get a hair cut i havent gotten it cut since beginign of january. my ends are sickkkk
just realized that like a week after i get outa school its the he is legend/classic case show! i have yet to see he is legend live and i havent seen classic case live since they opened up for like a static lullaby or someone at bottom lounge years ago
anyways
im off to attempt to do homework.
peace out homies
and gimme a ring this weekenddd

i have not updated this crap since september...


woops.
i cant sleep and im bored so i figured id check this shit out again?
anyways
someone talk to me
and tell me how much you m issed me on this shit

not that i dont talk to like all of you on myspace now
oh livejournal how ive missed you


...not really
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wow. so yesterday me and ash FINALLY moved into school :) our dorm is fucking PIMP. its pretty big for a dorm and we color cordinated all our crap so its looks cute as hell. my dad got us a sick ass tv and dvd player-the works. its fucking amazing i still cant believe im here! whoever wants to visit we got sleeping bags and its totally cool if you wanna crash here. so im sitting here listenin to new every time i die and talkin to andy my neighbor and just. ugh. this is so unreal. i love depaul i love chicago i love college i love being on my own FINALLY :) :) :)


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i hope u all had an amazing summer. i know i did. school tomorrow-AHHHHH but atleast im a senior :) a year from now, well be goin off to colleges :( sad but yay :)

weird. thats what i wrote just about a year ago. and now...saras already gone, annies, gone, dannys gone, justins gone, paige and caryn leave tomorrow, its insane. i leave a week from sunday and am so unbelievably excited but at the same time. really sad to leave all of the memories i have from here. especially ones with people ive been with almost all of my life. i know we all say well keepi n touch, but the truth is, im scared i wont with some people. i know its crazy to think that but...idk. i just really hope that those people who mean more than the world to me will still be in my lives forever.

and for those of you who are stayin around here/still in high school...i expect many visits from you kids. got it?

this summer was perfect. thank you to those who made it special. there was almost no drama haha lots of laughs, hugs, cries, just everything. <3

so i just got my wisdom teeth pulled about 3 hours ago. owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. they didnt give me much vicodin and i already took 2 haha. shit.

the only perk?

getting suprised with flowers being delivered from a boy. basically the sweetest boy ever.

it made my mouth hurt a bit less. :)

her eyes fade in the mirror as she tries to remember the last time she smiled
hours and hours go by
not a memory to trace
her eyes fade again in the mirror as she counts the countless times shes been that girl
the one they throw away when theyre done
the one whos so naive she truely belives every promise is real
the one whos been pushed down so much that there is no more light
a waste of passion
a waste of beauty
she stares back once more only to notice her eyes withering into tiny droplets of nothing
she sinks to the floor
gently places her head on the cold harsh surface
and screams

sooo hot topic doesnt show you confusin things on the register. so when i have 2 mistakes-i get 2 write ups. third one-youre fired. yesterday i made sure to count back peoples change so i wouldnt make a mistake. remember that managers can use your drawer if you cant come up there to ring. plus they didnt count my drawer before i left meanin someone else couldve used it. so today magically it was EXACTLY 20 dollars over yesterday. thats one bill meanin it couldve been done by anyone i know it wasnt me and i fucking got fired. fuckin assholes im so pissed off but once again
another reason that makes me love katie bernd even more if thats even possible which i didnt think it was
shes giving me a job at ben and jerrys and is saving my ass



I LOVE KATIE BERND AND WANT TO MAKE HOT BABIES WITH HER
the end


oh-and supposed to hang out with kurt today. should be very fun. very exciting. very nervous. hmmm idk :)

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